.THE 'BAR' AND THE HAPPINESS!!.(the cLickfriendz'S firSt ever anniverSary.ü)

-cLick5: babez, van, jake, mai and ana.
-pluz one: cy
-with escortz: jay and kev
-feat.1M: mitch

18th of june 2009: of course,the date yesterday.the day in which the people listed ab0ve would never forget,next to their bdays.the day they experienced happiness m0re than they expect ever!

ang araw na wlang kaplan0 plan0 s kung anung mngya2ri s buhay namin.at sa kng anung klaseng enjoyment ang blak nmin gawin.bsta kumpleto at buo ang barkada,okei na un!!

e dahil sa hndi nmin natiis n wlang mngyayaring espexal s araw n un eh ngpsya kaming mgpka-earth loving, nature-themed at mging adventurous: hinulugang taktak!

and there!!may place na!xmpre,lunch ang celebration, ng-ihaw kme ng b0nggang b0nggang tilapia at ska hotdog.woohoo. tp0z pumakyaw ng de-lata at umin0m ng rc hbng kumakaen s dh0n ng sging!!

nxt batch: ayan n ang 'bar'!!waaah..pnaik0t n mgmula s click5,pluz 1,s esc0rtz,dn ky mitch.at muntk png mkalmutn c kuya pat!!at hbang umiin0m ng bar, sndamakmak nman ng chichirya ang hndi rn tnantanan: hndi tnantnang kainin,papakin, gwing pambat0 ng kng cnu2, isalpak s bibig ng my bibig, gwing 'c0nfetti' at hgt s lhat, basagin ang 'tempura' s ul0 ng kaibigan n pra lng bnbsgan mu cia ng itl0g..haha..

mtp0z ang kainan,inuman, sbunutan,smpalan, kgatan,harutan, bsgan,bnatan, basaan ng alcohol, isama mu p ang twanan at iyakan, eh di uwian na!!haha..

t2pusin b nman nmin ang araw kng wlng k2nta ng 'destiny' at bgyan ang bwat isa ng 'super HUGS!'

tp0z mla2man knabukzn ung mga kl0k0hn: mga mskit n ul0 dhl s buk0l(aq!), dilang nging blue(aq!),muntk mwlan ng ph0ne, nwlan ng pay0ng, mga nag-uwi ng chicha(s ul0 ska bulsa),mga kng anung kaekekng d nmalyn, pti kuhaan ng pmasahe..haha..

kht mej0 nbitin,at medy0 ngksktan,super enj0y pdn.we s0o loved the day.

s pnkam2hal qng clickfrndz, super duper über tnx tlga,d lng dhl s nksal0 q kau s supr spexal day n i2, kndi dhl dn s mga m0mentz, s mga arw ng kcyhn at klungkutn, tagumpay at kbiguan, kl0k0hn, kcbuyasan, ilng cry0s0ng bgay, tnx pu s0bra.nanatli kau skn at nging mtatag 2ng smhng i2

s kxma qng ngpcmun0 ng smhang it0, click5,tnx dhl isang ta0n niu qng cnamahan s fruitful frndshp na 2.isng ta0n niu qng inalagaan s pling niu,at isng ta0n niung tnanggap c 'mai' kng cnu mn cia dti at ngaun.

s access0ries-pLuz one, esc0rtz and 1M,-and visit0rz,tnx dn dhl dumatng kau smn at tnulungn niu kming itaguy0d ang smhng it0 watevr happens.

s mga mnsang nsktan, ngtmp0, nainis, ngalit, nyam0t.s0ri puh ng mdami.s mga ndamay s kaabn0rmalan at kt0pakan q, s0ri dn pu.

guyz,dq maexplain kng gnu q kau kmhal.kau ung tp0 ng kaibgang ay0k0 ng mwla s buhay q.kya sna pu, mg-last 2ng frndshp n 2 ng super tgal,and f God wud permit, i h0pe this last thru FOREVER!

once again(sa blog nman,tp0x n s pers0nal,tp0x n s txt!)

HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY cLick5 pLuz onE with eScOrtz feat.1M!!!

iloveyousoooomuch!!

hugz and kisses
from -mai-ü

worries.

i've missed you a lot.

yet,i've got so much to worry.thoughts. bout many things.

we talked.yet we're very silent to each other. lyk we're some sort of strange people. unlike that last time that we had this kind of talk. we're so cheerful,that it seems to me that it's been years since we've saw or communicate with each other. seems that time is too short for us, yet we have to make use wisely of that time. we talked and talked like there's no tomorrow.

but now..

excitements are all gone.since like you've been kinda lose that energy yesterday. the case is, when im around, talking with is lame. i mean,is there any problem with me?

di qu na kya..

feeling q andun ung tamp0. la n kxe ung dating qng 'quality time'. sori nman kng wla aqng pramdam. wla aqng rationale bout d2, s0 hndi q dn alam. cgur0 tmad lng, o, aaminin q rn n mnsan, ayoko lng.

feeling q nnman scanning aq. lagi nman.

sori lang. un. sori..
at isa png sori ulet. d q kze alam kng pnu q babawi. aq n nhi2ya. kse lam qng nsa akn n lhat, dq lang gngwan ng praan.

aun,nid q lng tlga ng undrstndng. kht wlang ka-under-understanding lhat e2.

imy & ily soo much.

-pra sa password ng blog q.(_--)

.don't dwell in the past.--(unwritten blogs) PART FOUR.

¤Date: Mon Apr 20 00:06:45 2009

subj:kalok0han!!adik ba q?!e2 nnman tau sa muving on..SPELL!!

..hay..hayt..haytz..

..kla q tp0z n..kla q muv on n..kla q nag let g0 n..pr0 an0 t0h?!bket et0 nnmn?!

..clickfrndz' c0nfi last h0ly wednesday..geh,c0nfi lng..sbe nla skn d aq mk2muv on dhl klsm8z kme f0r d wh0le summer..(at s lht2 ng clickfrndz s mund0,cia p!!amp0ta..e prng et0 lng ung syn n hningi q ke br0 nun 2ndyr.2nd sem..)..sbe q nkmuv on nq..np2nyan qn un..asa denial stage dw aq..haiz..aywan..twa lng aq..stating evry feelng of muving on..n0t kn0wng He's LISTENING ON D OTHER LYN!!(*what the!!n0w im d0ne!-un lng nsbe q s srli q..smhan mu p ng syet)..alth0ugh d mxad0ng nk2hya 4 me,bt aftr all c0nfesi0ns?!gawd..

..wel,dp dun ngtp0z..ngkainglesan p cla ni khie ng dhl skn..kesy0 im kwawa,dhl 'kng anu mn ang gngwa s knYa ni van,ay un dng gngwa nia skn'..and kesy0,he has 2 treat me well..(well,i dnt c any reas0n he's n0t treating me well)..t0ld her n0t t0 b0ther..pbyaan n,bka lalu p lumake gul0..or if evr,bka mistaken lng ung cnbe nia..

..wel,he treats me wel nga nmn nung ngpxukn..ay,bumaet nga ang m0k0ng..t0ld her,it w0rked..er0 wapakelz pdn..haiz..nu nnmn t0h?!he even makes bes02 one tym n glng kmeng byan at pauwe n kme..gulat aq huh!!haha..

..bt d fact's alive dt he still luv van..im n0t against n0r wil never ever be against ab0ut it!!ala ei,2lungan q pa siiya a kung guztu nia a..haha..

..share q lng ung khp0n ng m0rning..
Message(fr.hm):sa araw ng ksal q,an0 ang iy0ng g2mpnan?(ch0ices f0ll0ws)
txt q: 'pwdng asawa,pwde rng ung ccgaw ng itigil ang ksal..haha..
Him: haha,kaw ha,pacmple k pa,haha
me:haha..adik..sag0t lng un n0..haha..
Him:haha,kaw bhla,lov u mai,
me:hehe..adik..luv u 2..haha..
(amp0ta..bket d2 q knlig ng t0d0?!tsk)
--pnasa q dn ung message..
Him:asawa o ccgaw ng itgl ang ksal
me:haha,hala..gaya..haha
him:hehe


in conclusi0n:cge anabear,pxlmat aq ng t0d0 sau..c0me t0 think,h0w ab0ut my m0ve-on-let-g0 scenari0??and ds h0ld-on situati0n
i can't handle,or else..ill b hurt again 4 d m0st maximum n0.of tyms ive decided t0 m0ve on,let him g0and give him up f0r d sake of my bleeding heart..bt ds f0ol kept on l0ving him..e hnggng kelan nnmn nia m2hlin t0h..days?m0nths? year?hnggng s igi2ve up ulet at mauudl0t ulet..when wil ill finally decide??i l0ve d way im l0ving him,bt its n0t right,ryt??

..i need a tremend0us reas0n..i need a sign..will there be a single chance,that this time,tellng me that He'll (Romantically) love me bak???

..pr0 plz lng..sbhn mu nlng skn n d tau pwde..wg mu ng smantlahn ang summer n t0 pra s pg ibig q..ay0k0..

..in denial stage nga,bt ds tym,i wNT it right..

..im loving..AGAIN!!

..im tired..if evr d chance s dr,plz..ikw nmn..

..i wnt enuf..

..heart..hurt..hmm..they rhymed!!

..spell 'c0nfused'..
mai

.don't dweLL in the past.--(unwritten blogs) PART THREE.

¤..bLug!:(

Date: Sat Mar 14 09:54:25 2009

subj: failure

"ds day..itz a mess..evry m0ment,evry heart p0unding mem0ries creep in my mind..as i close my eyes t0nyt,and as i wake up t0m0rr0w,i hardly wish dt all of these ws only a nytmare,th0ugh it really s0unds imp0ssble..i dnt knw f nxt tym,it'll b bettr..i dnt knw h0w wl i g0 on..s0 sad,s0desperatng,nd s0 exhaustd..:'(.031309."
...sh0utout q s ym kgbe..
...my frst case is such a disaster..
...kht b me chanz..itz stl a failure..mdme ng issue,mdme nnmng puytan,gstucn,pg0d, hirap,utak,c0mm0n sense ang g2mtn..
...khet b kn0c0mf0rt aq ng mga ta0ng least 2 xpct n ic0mf0rt aq,d pdn 2mgl ung pg2l0 ng luha q..
...it ws in my very m0st part..d nq kbad0 nung una,i knw dr ws a questi0n..evrythng is questi0nable..pr0 nung dmatng n ung tym n hloz alm qn n repeat kme..lutang nq s ere..paiyak nq..nsa hrap aq ng limang panel at labngdlwa qng clsm8..i ws t0tally weak nd pgil ung iyak q..mlalm n nd super sh0rt n ung pghnga q..ang tkb0 ng icp q repeat cse n kme..or much w0rse,we t0tally failed..
...ngyare n ung pnkaknat2kutn q..yes,we're repeat..i cnt h0ld bk d tears..fr0m c0ldness,hnggng s lbas..hnggng s mgusp2 uli kme,hnggng s mga kaibgn q,at hnggng ngay0n..wlng ibng dumapls s icp q kundi it0..wla nqng ibng incp kundi pn0 mk2bwi,pn0 mgccmula ule..
...wlng pngkaiba ang lht s pra kng nmtyan..
...mdmeng ngs2be n g0 on..kya nmn 2..cgur0 my purp0se kng bkt kme ngkgn2,kng bkt aq gnan2..i cnt blame othrs,bt alth0ugh dy t0ld me dt n0 1 s 2blame,i blame myslf..i knw drs wr0ng,bt i dnt exrt d e4t 2c0rect mstakes..
...my mga ngakla p n mdli lng 2ng mga gngwa nmn..kmusta nmn?wla clng alm kng gn0 khrp ang lht ng 2..y0k0 ng mkpgtl0 p..
...sna..sna maauz n..y0k0 n ng gn2ulet..mhrp bumang0n pmnsn2..kht kya nmn..sna tma n..wlang away,wlng c0nflct..sna we w0rk agen 2gedr harm0ni0usly..
...T.T..

¤Date: Tue Mar 24 01:05:44 2009

haayayyay..
Case pre n nmn bkaz..ay m2ya pla..12hrz.2 g0..
And i nid the atleast 4hrz.of sleep,reviews(duh!exams!) at pera! I need pera c0z ill nvr survive untl wednsday wd0ut mkng utang!!haiz..grabe..
Per0 hgt s lht,ang case..
Hay yuku n umiyk s pgdidibdib ng cse n yn..dehydr8td n..
E aq ngedit kgbe..e di ntp0z..e ung kna mitch,tp0z ndn..e ung kla cy,tp0z ndn,kx0 c0rcti0ns..mej0 dme kea aun,ngumangawa n..
hay..nid qn sleep..hl0z nkpkt nq ow..haha..pera,CASE! wah..buang ng..dq n alm cnsbe q..
CASE,EXAMs,pera!
Haha..

.don't dweLL in the past.--(unwritten blogs) PART TWO.

¤Date: Tue Jan 13 05:58:11 2009

subj:re to cy-gvng up luv..
...heheh..thank u..sna final n 2..sna 2loy2 n cia..nk2lungk0t mn pr0 kelangn qn tlgang gwn bg0pq mkrmdm ng ms msaket..cgur0nmn nrcv mu ung gm nia kgbe db?dq alm kng aq b ung isa dun s pnat2maan nia..bt im n0t closng any d0ors 2 changes..f destiny continue 2 tilt our w0rlds,ill jz g0nna let it happen..auk0lng tlga ulet mc0nfusd ung pus0q..cz d m0r it gts c0nfusd,d m0r n umaasa aq dt bhind our laughs,bhnd d j0kes dt we throw,bhnd dt sweetest m0ments,cia nmn ang mgappr0ach skn 2 luv me..nd lastly,d nmn nia kyng igv up c van kht my lst wl nd tstamnt ciang cnbe skn..s0 s0much 4 ds luv..gudluck sken..hahah..

¤Date: Thu Jan 22 09:03:25 2009

subj: t0 give up..

..flng q ang lo0ser q..i cnt kp my w0rd..dq n alam kng pnu q k2lmutng mhal q cia..hayz..e2 nq s pkrmdm qng gz2 qng umiyak pr0pnipgil q..ang bgat2 s dibdib..
..aminin q n cgur0 nga umaasa aq n sna mhlin dn nia q..cmula nung cnbi nia skn n ig2v up n nia c van,at ska ung mga tym n ngcmula n nia qng biruin..mnsn ns2be q lng s srli q n ''bhnd th0se j0kes r lies..pr0 sna nga 22o nlng n0h..sna nga mgk22o..''
..inaalgaan q ung imahe q blng ba2e,kea kht sbhn ntng aq n g2wa ng 1st m0ve,itz n0t an opti0n..mtaas ang pride q..
..sbe skn nung frnd q kgbe,pnkmsket dw ung mga bruang hndi mu alm,22o n pla..sbe q pti s knya kgbe,cgur0kng bngyn nia ng f0ll0w up ques.ung 'cnt say' q..bka umamin dn aq s knya..hndi e,s0 gn2 tlga q ngaun..
..in c0nclusi0n,i nid 2 gv up pdn..kht cnsbe ng pus0 qng ayw..klngn qng iplit..wla nmn aqng dpt asahn n m0re dn frnds db??mhrap umasa s wla..msket..even d w0rld s stl tiltng up0n us..itz jst playtym..

¤Date: Tue Jan 27 00:25:21 2009
subj:hangover sa tour..
hayz..s wkaz nkpgpaalam ndn..s0 im kpng my palms clasp..sna tlga mkxma aqu..at lhat ng clickfrnds..
waaaa..so lonely,yet so alone on d buz p ata..aun,sec.e kxma nmn..kmuxta nmn,cla jay..e d ibg sbhn nun kelngn niang mktbe c mitch db?!im g0nna left al0ne..hbng c cy,c jake at c kev mgksma s isng bus..they fit 2b family tlga..c van,c ana nd c babes mgk2xma ren..isa qng barrier s arw n un..hayz..greatest dream q p nmn mktbe c kev s bus..taz m22log cia s blkat q..at hndi n mngy2re un..
...d tlga mngy2re..tsk!!dq maimagine kng mg2ng p0sibleng mgksma kme s iisng bus..
...sna tlga mksma aqu..at kmeng lhat..sna msya..sna sfe trip..sna dme picz..
...hayz..e2 n lht ng pmax0k s icp qu..kea dq n alm ung ibng s2bhn qu..heheh..
...ngh2ngad n mksma truly..
_mai:)_

¤Date: Tue Feb 03 22:43:05 2009
...subj:kilig deep insyd!!
nktmbay kme s study area as usual..sk0p nmn ung 2 table..aq ung nkaup0 dun dul0 nung isng table n ktpt nung knau2puan ni kev..s0 it means n nsa ryt syd q cia knina..hwlay nga lng ung mga table nmn..nsa lft syd q nmn c marvin,tz ktpt q c cy..ktpt nmn nia cla mitch nd jay s my kblng table..
...kslukuyn clng ngr2view ng ec0..tmang dldlan dn..pg-angat q ng ulo q nktngn clang lht skn..kng mktitig p nmn pra qng my dumi s mukha..pgtngin q s knya,luming0n cia skn..tz nptitig q s knya..ngtnggl cia ng earph0ne sby tn0ng ng bkt..aun,twa nmn cla sbay klig..nhya q 2loy..
kwn2 insyd:thrice dw kz ptingin tngn ang kevin at ayaw dw nla mamiz ni marvin ang m0ment n un..
...aq dw knilig??ay nang..insyd ata..heheh..N0 COMMENT!!!!

.don't dweLL in the past.--(unwritten blogs) PART ONE.

-these are my past blogs-

title: ..bLug!!

¤Date: Wed Oct 22 19:20:34 2008

..haaah..katachycardia t0h!!
..bt gnun??nagetz q kagad ung sh0utout ni anakhie..
..ntk0t pla dw cia..s0 ibg sbhn b kng d cia ntk0t pnanindigan nia ung relati0nshp n un??
..anduwag nia..s0bra..pr0ansama sma ng ugali nia..npkaimmature kz nia..akala q ur d purfct man 2b my 1st bf..
..bt gnun k?ang sweet mu kz kht knin0..akala q my s0methng tlga..kht tuld0k ln..
..bk 2d t0pic..dq alam qng an0ng dpt qng mrmdman..kumir0t n nmn ung apical q..pr0 e2 ung gz2ng ipahiwatig n2..
..sna nging mtpang k nlng..sna umay0n nlng ung ugali m0 s height mu..(ds is n0t a j0ke)..pra nmn ms mtndi ung dhlan pra itap0n n kta play0 s nghihimak0s qng pus0..:[
..h0w d0 i start t0 live my lyf alone..guess im just learning,learning the art of letting go..

¤Date: Mon Oct 27 19:26:14 2008

..haaay..ang init s loob ng bhy nmn..kea aun,tumamby aq s lbaz..heheh..naicp q lng,christmas n..dq n lub0z maicp n da2an ung debut q bg0christmas..ahahah..mgdrama b??kz ung kptbhay nmn my christmas lyt n..pr0 mr0n dn nmn kme..d lng bnubuksn..ahahah..
..np2knta 2loy aq ng without u..excited nq dun s cd n ib2gy skn ni anakhie..ahahah..eun un e..heheh..
..bxta ang alm q bus0g aq ngaun..aq b nmn mglu2 ng dinner nmn e..s0pas!!ahahah..
..la lng,nshare q lng..nb02red kz aq..nbtin aq dun s sm nmn ni jake knina..hahah..
..hmmm..miz qn tlga c anakhie..at ska c van,c babes,c anabear,c mitch,c jake ska c jay..kht knina q lng cla nkta..in sh0rt,miz qn ang click5 pluz 1 wd esc0rtz feat. 1m..e1 q b kng bkt dq nmi2z c..........hahah..ktbe q cia knina e..anu ngaun..hahah..
..ok..s0 much 4 da missing..
_mai_

¤Fri Nov 07 00:51:12 2008
Sub: kelan kea aq??
..htnggabi n at inaan2k nq pr0 d pdn me mk2log..
..super ngagalak aq,d pra s srli q,kundi ky cy..my mnli2gaw n kz cia ngaun at ip2kla2 n nia smn 2bukz..kea nmn naka2exyt pla..heheh..
..pr0ud aq s knya..atlast!!na0pen n nia ang pus0 nia s p0ssiblty n pumx0k s isng relati0nshp..kht b gulong2 cia kng pnu mgde2cyd 4 ds thng..
..pr0..
..eh aq??kelan kea drtng ung tym n may maip2kla2 dn aq s knlang 'mnli2gaw slash bf'??..
..ngaun q lng narealyz n npgi2wnan nq ng pnah0n..hayz..umiiral n nmn ung pgi2ng desperada q..hnggng kelan kea aq mgh2ntay pra s la2kng un??mlamang,yrs n nmn ang aabutn pra tumib0k ult ang apical q pra s ibng la2ke..ilng araw,bwan,ta0n b ang mb2lang q 4 dt guy..?
..hndi aq tk0t n mgkar0n ng distansya ung smn ni cy c0z of ds guy..im g0nna b very hapi f evr n mgng cla..
..10 days..im g0nna b 18 within 10 days..im g0nna b 18 wd n0 b0yfrend since birth,wd n0 othr guy luvng me and im a t0tal miserable and a whatever maj0r LOOSER b0ut it..
..cgur0 ang hrap paibign ng mga la2ke..gz2 p nla ung mganda n,s lbaz plng..y d0 b0ys always tel me,even gurlz n 'mgnda k,mgauz klng..mgptaba klng..etc.'??mxama b mging simple s bu0ng buhay mu?ung wlang bahid ng c0smetics,wlang mg2rang damit at kya pdng ibign ng isng guy..dhl mhl nia q s kng an0ng mr0n nq at spat n cia dun..

..cgur0 kea naus0 ang w0rd na fabulous,s0syal at b0nggang b0ngga..dhl d n us0 ang bsta nlng simple ngaun..
..being simple is the m0st elegant thng in d w0rld..
..kng tlgang d aq b2ya2an ni g0d ng apical n tumitib0k pra lmng skn..t2nggpn q un..gz2 q lng yumaman ang tatay q skn..super thankful nq dun..
..cgur0 nktkda n skn n wla ng ibng la2kng mgm2hl skn..p2loy pdn aqng mg2ng l0yal s nbsb club..
..cgur0 e2 nlng ang ms2bi q...
..ms ok nq s gn2ng buhay..gn2lng n pngarap n gz2 q..ang mkaraos..d nq nangarp n mgkar0on ng pag-ibg..dhl auk0ng mabig0..dhl kng wlng pag-ibg,wlang kabiguan..-why why love
_mai_